CLARAAAAAAA`.

2010-11-17T00:29:00.003+08:00

Excellent day, if not for the rain.
First time kite-flying, one word- AWESOME.
But our kite keep going to one side LOL.
Flying in 12 hours' time( hope by the time anyone sees this, it's too late MUAHAHAHA)
Au revoir, people!
Okay, I might update when I get there.

Heathrow, here I come! <3

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2010-11-15T22:55:00.003+08:00

Freedom is sweet!
I've been on a whirlwind ride filled with shopping, food, shopping, food.................you get it.
Visited places like art museum, toy museum, bugis street, etc.
Nothing short of fun, definitely. *twinkles*
I'm on a mission to revive all the love I've kept hidden for the past 3 years,
in a bid to get in touch with my inner self.
Sounds so yoga right, I know.
HAHAHAHA.

Summary of my upcoming joys:

-Virgin Barrage experience tomorrow!!!
-Flying on Wednesday!
-Meeting Ying in London(:
-Christmas in NYC<3

Excited? Don't know about you, but I sure am hehehehe (:

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2010-06-18T02:55:00.000+08:00

I need a breather.

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2010-03-28T21:59:00.008+08:00

Awesome day!(minus the fact that my phone hangs like no one's business)

Thank you for the wishes, all the way from Wednesday till now(Facebook):
Celine Laura Cherlyn Ying Chew Joanne Jeramyn Jeremy Rayner Sheryl ZiHow Dawn Ivan Sirong Renia Eugene Danling JengTeng Bryan XinRui Waiteng JonLoh Gregory JiaQi Qiuguang Rebecca Stephanie Ted DanielF YanLun Joyce XinXian Xiwen ShiJing Xinhao Claire MichelleS SarahJane Tjia WanRu Misha Geoffery Bingxin Cheryl Javiel XueJin Jess Thanapong LingShan Liana PeiQi Zizhong HuiQi Kiahwee Jamie Deon Debi Cristal Jarren Gisella MichelleK Rachael Julian Felicia Melissa Waiyi ChengHao KimSiang Melvin Zehao Sili Daphne Hue Kyee Kangning Nicole Wendy Phyllis

There are also the ones who smsed me:
Cherlyn Laura(AGAIN) Jeramyn Ngai Fiona Belinda Tjia Chew Ying Yuzi Tanyi Qianhui Geoffery JonathanLok Alan Mel Wenhui(band) Waiteng Kangrong Jiahui Joey Javier Weining Blossom Hen Huimin Germaine Jebunelli Weiyan NicholasK FeliciaLing Vanessa Lynette Angel Ester Yanlun Lei An Qi En

MSN: Laura(AND AGAIN) YanLun YiLong Shiyin

then there are the those awesome people who deserve a second mention for making the effort to cause my profile page+handphone to hang while trying to reply thank-yous like:

Cherlyn Laura Jeramyn Ngai(I know you wish you're first but still......HAHAHA.) Fiona Belinda Tjia Chew Ying Yuzi Tanyi Qianhui Geoffery JonathanLok

Spent my day at temple(1hour)+tuition(6hours)+seoul garden lunch@bugis(3hours)+crashing Cel's party(1/2 hour).

Note: I really dont think i missed out anyone. Oh did i....?

Yesterday

Spent the remainder of my afternoon after tuition with this woman@PlazaSing.
Were supposed to catch Alice in Wonderland,
but the internet slots cheated her feelings, so we ended up walking around.
Headed off to Pizza Hut for dinner+long-awaited gossip session!
Seriously, what else can girls do huh.
HAHA.It's LARGE size, cheesy lava crust! (:
And yes we both finished it MUAHAHAHAHA awesome right i know.Headed off to Cathay to snap our fingers and test out Chew's ultra cool camera HAHAHA.
And this, sums up our perfect evening.♥

2010-03-24T19:55:00.002+08:00

Hell is what i've been facing these days.
Monsters both inside out.
Dramatic nights,
they never stop coming i guess.

On a bright note, I passed my AMaths test!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes i know after 5240298764057458276 years right (:
In your face, Differentiation!

I hope good things come along with the weekend,
hopefully, a fresh new slate for a whole new year.
My year, that is. (:

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2010-03-19T00:26:00.003+08:00

I've been having mood swings like never before and i don't know why.
It's making me go mad, bulldog style.
Perhaps it's the thought of what lies ahead- what takes place on 25th October.
Or perhaps it's the thought of school re-opening and the upcoming tests.
Perhaps, too, it's the S.King book that have been screwing my mind with the dark shadows and what-nots.

(2hours later)

okay I'm extremely pissed right now.
I just spent 2 hours doing the damned SS essay and now it's gone.
Great, just great.
It's 3am in the morning and I'm back to square one.
Never get any better than this, does it?

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2010-03-12T20:42:00.008+08:00

Homework list:

~~Chemistry; Acids, Alcohols WS.~~
EMaths; Standard Deviation WS 1 & 2, Bedok Green Paper 1 & 2.
~~Social Studies; GCE OLevel Question.~~
~~English; Comprehension 1982 (Weds)~~
~~Chinese; Chapter 8 预习 (Tues)~~
~~Physics; Chapter 20 MCQ Structured Question 1,4~~
~~Admin; GIRO form~~

so much to do, yet so little time. Off to get work started now!

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edit:16 March.

Halfway through the list! GUNNING ALL THE WAY CLARA

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2010-03-02T22:32:00.011+08:00

Busy times indeed.
Nothing interesting have happened in the past few weeks,
unless you count TKAM play & x-country.
Hence, the lack of updates here.
Common tests are coming up, alongside with SPAs too. :/
and March holidays are....not holidays hahaha.

I'm really worried for AMaths, but i feel like i'm at my wits' end on how to work on it.
Disheartened time and again, how to not be knowing that you're trying?
Hell, dropping it altogether is no option to consider for me.
My Sciences are back on track though, thank goodness.
Languages are......ups and downs, i guess.
Probably need to work on that bit.

I'm a pretty far cry from the tempremental self weeks ago, hysterics and all.
Too tired i guess.
Waking up with a throbbing headache, pinky eyes & sinus hitting me with mucus rashes and what-nots.
hm i think i'm gonna find one day to sleep off all these poopy problems.
Yes yes make them go away!
Like a once-a-month sleep cure or sth.

TKAM;
my awesome BN girls, some drifting elsewhere.

We love Literature! HAHAHA.

And then there are the sexy ones from GR.(minus Qianhui)

_________________________________

CNY period:
Movie date with Huimin was awesome minus the movie.
Valentines Day was a waste of money, no joke.
Spend 8.50 watching people do nothing but smooch for half of the movie.
I told her we should have watched PercyJackson!
Lunched @Fish&Co was great too, then headed for dinner at Ying's place.
_________________________________

and that, sums up my 'life'.
Hahaha.

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2010-02-24T22:17:00.003+08:00

Home is supposed to be where your comfort zone is.
Home is supposed to be where you can relax, even if it's for just a mere five minutes.
Definitely not here, though.

I wanna go somewhere and just....relax.
I dont like it.
I dont like it at all.
I hate being cornered and stuck in a damned corner like this.
I'm desperately doing my utmost just to score a bit better.
You know what?
suddenly i'm beginning to wonder about my future.
Maybe being a damned lawyer was not what i wanted after all.
It's just me trying to please you with the fact that it earns big bucks.
After all, it've always been all about money, isnt it?
Ever since i came into this damned world damned by the fact that i am here.

I spend my weekends at a CCA tht i dont give a shit about anymore&rush off to tuition right after that.
The next day i wake up at 9am while everyone else sleeps till 11 and i head off to tuition.
I reach home at 11pm every sunday night and still have to task myself to complete the damning assignments.

you're not the damning one who sits through those damned sessions and focus all the way.
you're not the one who trys to keep her eyes open no matter how tired she is during her lessons.
you're not the one who crys so badly every night in fear of Judgement day and still have to endure your rants.
you're not the one who cant even sleep when she wants to, partially because you think that 1130 is a damned early time to sleep when i could still study and you dont know what waking up at 530 is like and when i turn in at 1130 you scream and make sleep impossible.
what do you know, really.

There's no place like home.
Hell yeah, no place as damned as home, i suppose.

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2010-02-13T23:37:00.009+08:00

Chinese New Year Eve!
Dinner@home was great.
Missed my bro though-
hence i'm here to spread the love!
The feast, more like it. HAHA.
Cooking in progress!
It was actually on the charcoal stove the whole night before going back to the modern one.
Awesome right i know.

Eating in progress! Mom scolded me for being evil and taking this,
but she told me to angle it nicely to let my bro see anyway. HAHAHA
Women are so fickle-minded.
Steamboat, anyone?
Hahaha, i thought it was just plain soup till mom started throwing things in.
Well, everything except the salt.
As usual, she forgot. HAHAHA.

Like always, my house has a tendency to look like a flower galore during festive occasions.
My mom and her fetish for beautiful things, yes.

It's four minutes to CNY;
have an awesome day tomorrow people!
Especially the income part.
(:

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I forgot all about you until the clock striked 12.
How amazing is that.

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2010-01-28T20:45:00.003+08:00

School days have been mad.
No kidding, the introduction of protected time makes you go home feeling cranky.
Now, the earliest time i get to head home: 4pm.
Often end up reaching home feeling like I just experienced turbulence.

Band practices have been......poop.
4th year in band, it's the first time i feel like i walk away learning nothing.
Once upon a time i dread the thought of leaving.
No, i count down in anticipation.
Once upon a time attendance was never an issue for me, despite the various repercussions.
Now my only reason to continue going to that room is to get a tick on the paper.
Once upon a time i dig out reasons to come.
Now i dig out reasons not to come.
Once upon a time, i persuade people to come, too.
Now, it's the other way round.
Couldn't care less anymore;
we never had much of a say anyway.
Ah hell.

Desperately trying to get my studies on track now.
Faithfully attending all the extra lessons, completing all the assignments on my own...
a headstart's better than none, aye.
I think the school's weird.
They look like they want us to be pressurized, yet they tell us not to be stressed out.
Ironic, hmm.

Same mistakes, different year.
Pull yourself together already.

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2010-01-23T15:48:00.004+08:00

I do try my best to stay like this.

Rough day.
Shall not elaborate more.

Terribly tired;
i spent my morning doing SS maps in school,
by the lake.
Awesome peace(:
Decides that i shall wake up this early on saturday mornings to study like that.
Awesome environment!

Off to take a short nap to relieve myself of all negativity surrounding me.
Upon consciousness,
i shall hit the books(:
AMaths AMaths AMaths AMaths AMaths!
I shall handle it firmly.
Don't give up on numbers, Clara, not just yet.
You know you can do this.

I miss the old times.
Alot.

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2010-01-15T19:35:00.004+08:00

I decided to return here for a while just to keep things off my mind.

School have been far from a breeze,
with the workload filling up and me trying to keep it down.
It had an awesome start though,
and I plan to keep it this way.
All the new teachers are awesome too!
Mdm.Annisa Ms.K Mr.Yazeed (:
never a better combination of humanities teachers than this, no kidding.
I see a possible A1!!!!!:D
ELit's homework list is a bomb though.
Time bomb, in fact.
She doesnt scream at us,
but still we'd feel bad & she'd just increasing the workpile for those late submissions.
:/ not that we dont deserve it.

Maths & Sciences have been pretty alright too!
I don't owe any assignments, the last time i checked.
& Rate of Rxn have been a breeze so far! Mrs Tan's awesomeeeeee.
Electricity.......okay i did my own revision so perhaps i might survive!
(looks towards the bright side)
Differentation is a spicy bitch and Graphical Solns are chicken feet.
HAHAHA.

Clara, i'm expecting A1s from you for all the upcoming tests.
Yes, even Amaths. You hear me? A1s for ALL the upcoming tests.

Off to complete ELit's key questions; deadline's at 9pm, tonight.
Adieu!

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2010-01-01T01:47:00.002+08:00

New Year Resolutions
1. Not to be late for anything.
2. Be nice only to people who deserves it.
Doesnt pay to be always nice(lesson learnt in '09.)
3. Kiss life goodbye, welcome studies with open arms!

I do think three is a lot,
considering the amount to work to be done just to achieve any of the above mentioned.
Bless me alrighto.
Spent my New Year's Eve with Ying@ Far East,
shopping for rompers and skirts.
Yes i know, skirts.
Mom told me not to come home without one, hence that.
(P.S. Sorry Waiteng! I smsed her in the morning, but ended up with Ying. :/)
Had dinner at her house,
watched 3/4 of Yes Man.
Movie's pretty mundane, unlike the trailer.
What a cheater! ):
Oh well. Had an awesome time with turkey and red grape&raspberry juice though.
Fabulous way to sum up a loser year.
Hope good times are upcoming already!

Happy New Year!

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2009-12-25T23:22:00.005+08:00

Spent my Christmas with Sherlock Holmes& Waiteng@ The Cathay.
Awesome moments, with some free treat of Chocolate Therapy @Bens&Jerry's with Jieyuan! Best(Y) Sky Juice! HAHAHA
Let's not talk of that unhappy moment though, sigh.
Photos taken with her DSLR...
She didnt follow the dress code! Grrr.

My Christmas present for her!
Not like she gave me any, but i'm not complaining! (:

SKY JUICE. What a joke, goodness me.

You do realise this was coming, don't you?
Fyi, it's cheeezy baked mussels with awesome chilli sauce which i dare not dip HAHA.
Billy Bombers ftw!(:
I'd be crazy to go Cathay not take a picture with these awesome looking buggers.
*swoons* But Waiteng didnt let me watch it, so we ended up with Sherlock Holmes):
But it was equally awesome homfg HAHAHAHA super cool no kidding.
Fell in love with British accents and their ridiculously hilarious sense of humor.
Jude Law is still as awesome as ever too. (:

And that, sums up my Christmas!

2009-12-24T16:34:00.004+08:00

♥Sunflowers, lilies, boo traffic, ACJC, HollandV, Nasi Lemak, Comm.

2009-12-24T02:21:00.005+08:00

"What comes around goes around."

Embarked on a short hiatus before deciding to return.
Life have been pretty alright,
considering the fact that I'm at home already.
I've been having outbreaks of acne though.
Guess I haven't been having enough sleep.
Time check: 2.24am.

Mom just extended her stay to 28th Dec.
Which spells that I'll be spending Christmas alone.
Ho hum.
I've been spending my holidays divided between tuitions & learning my dialect.

The shanghai people are back!
Chew Ngai Hui Est Chick Debs Fi yay hahahaha.

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2009-12-12T21:39:00.006+08:00

Life without music & laughter have caused me to become increasingly bad-tempered and caustic.
I have spent the holidays thus far with tuition and....unhappiness.
How sweet.
I spent my nights in silent tears,
wishing for nothing more than to go home or get out of wherever i was.
Having to just hear her, lest to say see her,
is pure excruciating torture.
I miss home.
So near, yet so far.
Ah hell.
Nevertheless, i shall make the best out of it.
Piano recital tomorrow,
turning in early!

/

Music washes away from our souls the dust of everyday life.

/

2009-12-09T18:58:00.002+08:00

That feeling is back again.
The feeling of having so much to say yet no one to say to.
That cooped up, holed-in feeling.
Hated it then, still hate it now.
I wanna get away from wherever i am now.
I wanna go home.

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And you, are the cause of it.

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2009-12-07T23:37:00.002+08:00

Lack of good dreamless sleep these days have been detrimental.
My appetite have decreased greatly( don't know if that's good or bad.)
Hell, for the first time since the last 3 years,
i have not been finishing all meals in the past 3days.
Tuition's been great though.
Despite the long hours,
i actually absorbed everything and remember my static electricity stuff even after 48hours.
Hmm, hope this goes long term.

313@somerset smells of thinner.
And i had a horrible experience back in the basement 1.
So it's not exactly my favorite mall.
Loving orchard central's escalators best!(:

Grandma's sick. Bad.
Doc says to be prepared any time.
And bro's having finals next week.
): Pray all goes well.

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2009-11-25T22:21:00.002+08:00

the ad above reminds me of the hot guy in Criminal Minds.
Tall dark alright.
Complete jackass too ho hum.
I had pralines for breakfast.
Long and dark wholesome chocolate on the outside, awesome hazelnut cream on the inside.
Awesome for breakfast, serious.
Considering breakfast have been at 1plus 2 these days.

I still think logarithms is a bitch after 11months of facing it.
Hence i dislike binomial too.
I havent been doing much except going for new tuition & waiting for that internship approval.
Have been refreshing my mailbox, especially.
I think that guy's ignoring me on purpose.
He's always either home, away from desk or 'engaged' at the moment.
12th time i've been bugging him.
No matter, i'll go all the way for this one. (:

Chinese homework is an ultimate mans.
The retarded audio recording is causing my firefox to hang its underwear like mad.
So much for the school's creativity.
Complete cowhead cancer.

And i cant believe myself.
I just read the above post and realised 50% of the content is about homework.
Clara's becoming a real bookworm.
Awesome i know.

Reminder to self: do something about that chemistry christmas present.

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2009-11-22T11:37:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was really bad weather.
Thunderstorms, flash floods- all in the band room.
How awesome is that.
So many questions too but who are we to judge except to accept what's done right.
No say in this case, none at all.
So much for democracy.
So much we're going to miss too: Eeyore slippers, long faces, flying batons.
And so much more.
-Thank you.

English homework is really turning out to be a bitch.
I've been typing and re-typing and re-typing for the past two hours.
With not a single inkling on how to go about penning down my thoughts on the stories.

i think the new lighting in my room looks better than awesome.
and it costs just 39bucks!!!!!!!
Totally brings out the yellow-ness of my room too MUAHAHA.
In your face, mom!
Whoever said yellow was ugly,
obviously hasnt seen this! :
Awesome right!
I know, i feel the same way too. HAHAHA
Off to complete all the english shit, then start on recording my awesome chinese voice HAHAHAHAHAHA.

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The essence of this one man changed as many as 400 others.

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2009-11-19T00:38:00.003+08:00

Indeed.
In my eyes,
that's how far we are from establishing a slightest bit of success.

Incredibly maddening moments these days are getting high up to my neck.
Daresay the problem doesnt lie with yours truly.
Homework too,
tries its best to be a bitch by not letting me find my Chinese books to do that damned book review.
Stranded at home these days, sigh.
Everyone else's overseas though.
One's honeymooning over at California,
Some went off to improve their Chinese,
others went for kimchi hotpot.
Oh well.
I shall buy the Sense of Belonging book this very day and read it.
I shall.
I shall.
I shall............do it tomorrow.
SIGH.

I shall comfort myself about my loneliness with AdamLambert's new album:
For Your Entertainment.
For mine, alright.
HAHAHAHA.

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2009-11-08T22:11:00.008+08:00

Awesome DeonHeng is an awesome Chinese tutor!!!
She intro-ed me an awesome guide book and taught me awesome vocabulary.
How awesome is that.
:D

I shall get an A1 for my chinese.
Yes.
We shall all get A1s.
No more room for mistakes, no more.

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2009-10-31T21:47:00.002+08:00

Typical dramatic episodes as usual.
Nothing less than what i had expected to happen.
What more could i ask for anyway.
Shall talk no more about it.

Rain's been making me moody, down in the dumps, whatever.
Woke up in the morning, disorientated.
Bile kept rushing up to my throat non-stop.
Fell out of my bed while searching blindly for the damned remote control
(yes, you did not just misread this.),
kicked my table, sprained my ankle.
What a way to start a day.
Didnt bother applying any shit onto that bloated foot,
hobbled my way out of the house and headed for theory exam.
Slipped and fell again on the damned marble tiles,
went into the exam hall with a wet bottom and foul mood.

Exam was pretty alright i guess,
considering that i spent my time at the wedding dinner the night before poring through my notes
while other people poured vinegar and pepper over their sharks' fin soup.
Then again,
considering the numerous failures from past experiences,
no promises of what i'll get.
Who knows i might even fail just again huh.

Chinese coming up next,
hope all goes well.
I hope to at least score in compo,
to secure a nice B perhaps.
One week away now.

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2009-10-27T20:56:00.004+08:00

Dead beat.
Mentally down and out.
i shall let the pictures do the talking.

last monday, 19.10

last wednesday, 21.10

last friday, 23.10

sunday 25.10

tuesday, 27.10

Feel like the world's crashing upon me.
Repetitive attempts to lift my mood have been futile.
Varied explanations flooding my think bubble;
fantastically annoying.
Depending on circumstances,
i might not be back for quite some time.
Taking it as a holiday, i suppose.
ta.

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2009-10-17T21:50:00.003+08:00

Supposed to go out with Ngai,
but apparently womanhood got better of her HAHAHA.
go figure.
AND I'M NOT ANGRY YOU COW.

SHOPPING WITH VICKY WAS BOOMZ.
HAHAHAHA sorry i'm just addicted to speaking Ris language.
But seriously!
we walked, and walked, and walked, and walked,and.....
okay you get the point.
We spent 20 minutes looking for each other on Ion's 'ground' floor before heading to FEP together.
Ogled at cookie monsters cameras pedicures dresses and even hot twins HAHA.
How's that for two crazy girls @FarEast.
Fell in love with so many stuff...................
and everytime we fall in love, wallet genie starts snorting at us.
Oh whatever.

I seriously think blogshops are losers sometimes.
They dared to open shops,
and sell defected goods huh.
That being the point,
they think an 10% discount's enough to make up for 6 defects!
a BIG hole at the waist too.
how comforting.
But then again,
the dress is nice:/
so nice, we just had to go back and try it.
Gave it up anyway,
and thank god we did.
Went upstairs and found even more FABULOUS dresses HAHAHA.
IN YOUR FACE BLOGSHOPS!

What a steal right!
One for 30bucks plus,
we bought two at a 20plus bargain.
Twins package too!
To hell with couple tees HA.HA.HA.

Headed for Ion's Topshop sale thanks to info from Joyce,
but the stuff there arent all that fantastic:/
Saw Fiona Xiwen Nicole@Accessorize thank god no Lady Gohgoh or my day's ruined.
KIDDING.

Ugh, so much for trying to squeeze into the picture.
Yes yes i know i take up all the space i cant help being the star of the photo right HAHA.
Headed for starbucks after asking the info counter about its location and having him reply, 'behind you!'
How's that for being a total embarassment.
Tjia even went, ' theres no Starbucks here la!'
Collapsed after buying grandes before starting our 'photo shoot' HAHA.
But i'm laaaaaazzzyyy, so here's 3.

' i know i stink, stop smelling me.'

Happy in comfort of happy food.

Happy with our gr8 steal!

Mom's flying in 2 hours' time:/
Oh well.
I promise to wake up @ 8 and make it in time for swimming and go for Chinese tuition too.
Clara you can do it!
Right!
Okay off to watch Project Runway again ta.

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2009-10-16T20:59:00.003+08:00

YAY EXAMS ARE OVER MUAHAHAHAHAHA.
Like, finally.
Today seriously suck though.
Grrrr okay the day's retardness is enough to make up for my injustice.
Or rather, GQH's retardness. HAHAHAHAHA
Dont believe ask Fiona or Xiwen lor.
:D

Swensens was BOOMZ.
HAHAHAHAHA i missed my Macadamia Mania dearly aw.
should have seen the way i seduced that icecream HAHAHA.

At Gohgoh's insistence, we shared a main course and salad HAHAHA.
Look at the size of the cutlery for salads!
Just nice for a mouth like mine yay.
Exams' over, to hell with fats.
Tuck in!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy with our food! YAY

Qianhui's so ugly, this is the only picture i have of her.
Look at me, so reluctant to even consider the prospect of being in the same picture as her.

She knows she ugly so she's considerate enough to cover up half her face.
How sweet of her!

I'm blinded by her ugliness.

She makes me constipated!

What's life without a little drama?

Our pathetic attempt to move our noses like the witch in Bewitched HAHAHA.
end up our mouths are moving. Pathetic HAHA.

My beloved, the root of all sins.
HAHAHA MACADAMIA MANIAC ME YAY.

Up close, deep down......
Chocolate fudge and a pure ladleful of caramel.

Qianhui's shy cos she thinks the waiter thinks she's retard.
Point being she is retard anyway HAHA.
SWENSENS BOOMZ.
HAHA.
Happy girl in the house yo.

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2009-10-10T12:34:00.002+08:00

SS got me really, really unnerved.
Slept at five last night thinking how far things are gonna get me at this rate.
Throbbing headache for a headstart, literally.
I need to buy a watch to keep my time on track too.
History is in 47hours' time.
Off to settle my scores with Trig now, ta.

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2009-10-04T18:17:00.002+08:00

I'm worried.
Physics practical is coming so near,
and passing my theory test does not make me the smartest kid in the block.
And my accuracy in pinpointing the angles......suck to the max.

i'm feeling jittery too.
English was...okay i suppose.
I'm still hoping that some good would be done out of an essay written in 15minutes.
I hoped, that is.

And, i'm happy.
Not like crazy,mad over-the-heels happy,
but the contented full feeling happy.
because.......................................................
i finish my revision for AMath.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
what were you thinking?
(:
EMATH HERE I COME WOOOOOHOOOOOO.

Countdown meter:
2 days to Physics SPA.
4 days to HCL Paper.
5 days to SS Paper(eat shit you.)
8 days to EHist& EMath Papers.
9 days to blind Mockybirds.
10 days to Mole.
11 days to AMath Paper(Hallelujah!)
12 days to Physics& Fair Hermia.
13 days to Deepavali= EOES!

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2009-10-01T21:09:00.004+08:00

I'm hyperventilating.like.mad.
I desperately want to score a nice B grade for English overall
but even that seem so far away.
Aww hell.
Its no fair that schools like CedarGirls' get off easy
when their entire level dont do well they dont bother counting in the marks.
Meanwhile our school just console us and tell us to work harder whenever we fail.
So much for a consolation huh.
Okay Clara stop you're lowering your own confidence enough.

Tomorrow's already looking like a killer day.
I shall not think any further about it and shall sleep this very instant.
I sincerely pray my creative juices will start flowing like crazy tmw and get me going.

2009-09-30T08:06:00.002+08:00

I'm getting nervous.
Chemistry 'O' level spa's in 5 hours' time.
I'm really, really nervous.
Okay maybe i should stop hyperventilating already and start reading my notes.
No wait i'm still super nervous.
AHH crap okay nevermind.

My thighs are still in perfect agony after yesterday's saga.
Then again its great to know half of the class are probably feeling as shitty as me woohoo.
Okay i'm off to meet tjia and royboy @ macs to cover up whatever's left to cover and hope for the best.
I need to score in this.
Need to , want to, have to.

/

2009-09-26T22:06:00.003+08:00

I'm tired.

Completed:
-AMath topic-by-topic revision.
-Physics TYS minus sound& EMwaves spectrum.

Next up(by next weekend):
-EMath topic-by-topic revision.
-AMath EOY papers.
-SS lorms.
-Chemistry TYS(ABS, IonicCovalentMacromolecularMetallicBondings).
-Physics TYS; Sound& EM waves memo.
-Mockybird.
-Midsummer's themes.

Reminder to self:
- to get Chemistry last year EOY paper from Mrs Tan.

Gonna hit the books now.

/

☮

/

2009-09-23T21:55:00.002+08:00

I'm anticipating tomorrow in total excitement.
Or so I think i am.

KrisA's new song; check this out.
Here's a part of the lyrics that made me reconsider
putting down my Lit book for Face book.

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell em that we love em
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like were dying

/

2009-09-20T10:46:00.002+08:00

10 sentences before I go for tuition in 2hours' time.
1.I THINK MINUTES IS A BITCH.
2.Empathy; that's what this world's lacking.
3.I dread English paper's arrival in two weeks' time.
4.Why must E Math be so full of poop and make simple things look so complicated?
5.My new bag has the color of this.
6.My mom looks really sexy wearing this color.
7.I really hope things will work out- it all depends on this.
8.I hope this space will look better with many many many nice colors yay.
9.Grow up, people- its about time.
10. Why does my favorite color look like cow pee here?):

/

2009-09-16T20:11:00.002+08:00

He's gone.
Yeahyeah I know this day was gonna come anyway
so what am i complaining about.
Whatever.
Desperately trying to suck those eye pee back
into my retina pupil wherever they came from.
So that's it.
I'm all alone again.
Alone for 4years, more to come.
great.
"get used to it."
sounds familiar? That's me talking to myself.

Spent the evening with mom and bro last night(0:
Man i love Tampines1's jap food.
fanatabutasticlous manszxzx.
and and and,
here's the best part.
MID-SEASON SALE OH YEAH MAN.
it's like 10plus bucks for each shirt
I love cache.cache to the maximum(:
should have seen me tossing the clothes one by one into the basket muahahaha.
And another signature move: Mom's tossing clothes into her basket too!
HAHAHA.
And she has occupied like what,
2 wardrobes?
Guess it's in the genes:D
Photos for this morning's breakfast and last night's dinner is in Ge's camera.
Till he arrives,
i suppose.

Finals are like super near,
and those nerves are coming back again):
I have to score this once,
prove it.
Too much at stake right now,
I cannot not score.
Absolutely no.
For all the various study dates I've been diligently going for,
all the tuition sessions and late-nights I've spent catching up on work;
They cannot, cannot come to naught.

/

2009-09-11T22:43:00.003+08:00

I woke up feeling better than ever,
despite the hectic day previously from the wee hours of dawn till late into the evening.
SS lesson was...alright i suppose.
Did try to make the best out of what the situation was.
Rushed for lunch before heading for home to pack and rush out to study date.
Headed to Ion at around 5plus to fix my dumb shoes.
Made me walk around with the dumb labtop for half & hour while waiting for repair.
):bad bad quality.
Walked all the way to Central before busing home from there.

;When some people doesn't look past the people they dislike,
they forget what was the main reason for them being at where they are now.
They forget their duty as a whole,
and forget what they worked so hard for.
Is the position like an empty shell as they always say?
Just meant to be filled in to make it full for a while,
then it evaporates;
obviously but not meant to be kept full.
Don't they see the point?

It takes only one to create the start of a fall.
Two?
i wonder.

/

2009-09-10T22:24:00.002+08:00

I love LWW/OBBC to bits.(:
Exchange was fun,
and might have been better if not the long hours and my lack of energy.
But the Unity people are a great bunch,
so we had real great fun aye haha.
Oh and did i add how much i love my section?
Great bunch of darlings ,every single one of them hahahaha.

great evening,
repaired my rotten shoes heheheheheheheheheheheehehehehehehehehehehehe.

/

2009-09-08T18:10:00.010+08:00

I'm currently at Terminal 3 food court watching Keck and Javier munch on their food in utter delight while i mourn over my loss of money.
Henceforth i shall not look at them eat but rather, focus on this post.
Spend the whole afternoon with this bunch of gays @ TCC airport with coffee,cake, cheekan turkey bacon lasagna and Hitler.
Seriously there's no better phrase for Hitler than 'pain in my ass'.

Javier thinks he's cute.
So...................not.

Bare out those fangs, you bloodsuckers!

They call that cake Devil's chocolate cake,
hence the look on Keck's face.
Meanwhile, ignore Javier.

I just had to post this classic look of Javier here.
He looks too dumb, just nice for him yeah.

LOOK AT THAT HUMONGOUS MOUTH ON THE LEFT SIDE.
Even cows lose to him.
Loved the walky-talkys i had with both of them.
Hahaha me and Javier ended up walking on and on until the path ended.

Morning was spent on an extra AMath lesson in school,
which i dutifully attended(:
Binomial theorem here i come baby woohoo!

Swimming's tomorrow!
And mom's coming back too.
Wish me luck aye(:

reminder to self: i will complete until week 35 at least by thursday night.

/

2009-09-06T10:07:00.002+08:00

Recently i got around thinking about the future out there,
while buying reeds from conservatory of music@ NUS.
Would i wanna be one of the students in there,
or would i rather be the security guard sitting at the door?
Suddenly you realize you dont really know where you might end up,
or rather,
where you want to end up.
Just sets you thinking, doesnt it?

Band got me going crazy yesterday.
So tired, nothing much of a soul was probably left in my body.
And my persistent cough still had the nerve to wreck whatever's left of it.
Hell, even food cant cheer me up.
Headed back home @ around 6plus,
and crashed for 3 hours before bro woke me up.

/

2009-09-03T19:20:00.005+08:00

I'm kinda nervous for both the swimming and the exchange on saturday.
I think both are gonna screw pee and i dont know how am i gonna face it them both in a go.
I pray i can fast fast pass this swimming crap and own all those goldstar people yeah man whee.

Went for a really short shopping madness@ parkway today with Weining hahaha.
Really retard trip we were like going crazy with the mad offers@ mango and cotton on.
Though naturally, we didnt buy much with that pathetic amount of money we had.
I MUST SHOP AGAIN ASAP.
WITH MONEY.

I think she's a smelly cow who makes me hate that fox blouse i've been eyeing for so long.
):
In the end, she was the one with empty wallets and a bagful of clothes,
while i was left with a cardigan and a pencil box.
Hahaha i feel proud man.
i bought what i need, not what i want.
And that sums up what was left of the day.

And here,
i await tomorrow's arrival.

/

2009-09-02T23:08:00.006+08:00

Headed out to MP library yesterday for lunch& study date with Wai Teng.
She and her GP, me and my History assignment.
Messed around with my computer for a while before getting down to business.
I think i need to get back my focus.
Like, asap.
Exam timetable just came out and its super screwed.
I'm still thinking how to go about arranging the study times with a timetable like that.
Hell if i dont do something about it anytime soon,
i can probably forget about so many aspirations i have in store for myself.

Back to school saga was pretty cold.
I meant the weather of course.
Super good for sleeping in,
the worst kind possible for listening to Mr Ang chant about transverse waves.
I think i'm lagging awfully behind in lessons.
Chemistry mock spa retake was a total failure;
i had to use up 3 bottles of solution just to get a reading somewhat near.
No thanks to the retarded apparatus.
Okay i'm gonna start on AMath R-formulae myself without waiting to copy notes ta.
(:

/

2009-08-31T22:29:00.006+08:00

That's me and my completely retarded cousin HAHAHAHA.
one of the happier moments aye.
and Mom saw the photos on Facebook!
homg yes i know.

And and and,
i made my nails!
it's like super duper cheap over there;
nail art pedicure can just cos a mere SG$10 for 5 people!

Still,
To sum up the trip,
..heartbreaking i suppose.

Funerals and cremations were never my type of events to start a day with,
so i was probably the only one there worrying about carbon footprints
since everyone else was preoccupied with tears and what-not.

Looking at her was probably the hardest to take.
Those eyes that focused on us in nonrecognition upon arrival and
those fingers that subconsciously reach out into the air;
makes her body's like nothing but a shell that was wasting away slowly but surely.
And being there to witness all that was happening...
nope not a nice feeling at all.

And in the midst of all the sorrow,
there lies those shreds of jealousy and competition.
Aww hell to this world.

2009-08-18T20:01:00.002+08:00

I don't like today.
My thoughts have been flying all over,
drifting in and out of lessons and i don't like that.

Its an overwhelming thought when you realize you don't even care anymore.
And that's after like what, 15 years?
Its...scary.
And even if you do make the effort to just send some greetings,
the thought of not meaning it...
it's not much of a difference ay.
And it just gets to you after some time about how things even ended up like this.
You'd wish you never knew.
You'd wish all this wasn't true,
and you were even part of all this bullshit that puts you at where you are today.

I swear man,
if my point of view really was the above mentioned,
i'd probably be some emo kid down the street with slit wrists and dark eyebags.
I am thankful for who and where i am now.
At least i'm happy, if not rich.
At least i know what i want and what i'm working hard for.
At least i have a least bit of experience to figure out what is the world like there.
I did my part with the appropriate actions.
Whether or not you accept it,
I dont really care anymore.

/

2009-08-16T17:06:00.010+08:00

I'm feeling horrible now no thanks to the three muscles i pulled during swimming.
Blame it on the fact that i was too lazy to warm-up
and didnt realise there was gonna be a mock exam.
Ugh feeling really really cranky now.
Stupid muscles.

I'm amazed by the fact about how little i know my brother despite 15years of bonding.
So, after two months of closer bonding,
this is what i found out hahaha:

-He's scared of heights.
-He cant stand the cold.
-He hates fish.
( this one i know, thanks to my mom forcing me to eat whatever he doesnt eat.)
-He'd choose meat over veg any day.
-He loves his sister so much, he cant helping teasing the hell out of me every other day.
-He dont do horror movies, even if its for a date with someone he likes!(just like me, baby.)
and bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla black sheep have you any wool la.

I just spent the afternoon fooling around with him and my treasury of soft toys HAHA.
here's evidence of our our foo;

I'm a fat bitch to him.
He's a lousy chicken to me.
and since we cant find chickens in my private stash,
out came the duck.
*it was a birthday present from Ying hahahaha.
I wanted to tease him and tried calling him a cow.
But i drew the arrows on the wrong side and.....
it ended up pointing back at me again.

And we starting munching in on the soft toys starting from the eyes and ears.....

Who's the ugly one?
The one whose finger overcrossed mine, that one.
yepp, that's it.
(:

Writing minutes is a total bummer.
But getting replies for the minutes,
thats even worse.
grr and i havent send in the latest ones yet.
gah cowpoo nehneh booya chicken noodle soup porridge fish cow la.

/

2009-08-15T15:51:00.006+08:00

I think my specs are a total loser.
Yes its literally fading its bright sexy orange into fugly cowbell yellow ugh.
As though the guy who made the specs dyed it or something.
Ah sucker la.
School have been kinda hectic over the week,
hence the free periods on friday was a great relief.
I'm still pretty much worried with my results though,
with me scoring a mere 15/30 for the recent descriptive English essay
that was pretty accomplished considering that fact that i only starting writing
30 minutes before the bell rang.
Well, then again i missed the whole point, so it's probably no surprise.
I'm crossing fingers for the narrative one,
though my hopes arent as high as before.
More effort baby, more effort needed.

Writing minutes have been getting on my nerves these days la wtheck.
Lugging my laptop around like a munchkin.
Never in my life have i ever touched my email so often, serious.
Hell, i dont even check it.
And now i have to ask people to check theirs.
grr.

Speaking of Munchkins,
I LOVE THIS GAME MAN.
It's super duper fun ,i'm telling you.
I'm gonna save up money and buy this after i clear my debts HAHA.
yeah i too wonder, how long will that take?
good question.

/

2009-08-10T23:52:00.008+08:00

The post below is a post mostly dedicated to Kuoxian and her dumbness.
People who think of her as an ass might want to reconsider before reading on.
I can only use one word to summarize this.
Fantastic!
Homg Channing Tatum is darn hot inside it ahh yesyesyes hahahaha.
Man should have seen me,
i was desperately tugging Kuo Xian's sleeve whenever he appeared can.
HE IS HOT.
aww man should have just looked at his taut muscles and chiselled face ahmagawd.
Legendary, i'm telling you.
And yes i love this movie to bits.
A dose of good ol' classic nowadays is probably what we need to get away
from this complicated world of cow poo.
and serving an up-close shot of this guys who can even looking sexy with a surreal face;

Ka-boom!
*champagne pops open*
YEAH BABY HE IS THAT HOT!
even boyfriend agrees with me okay.
okay enough of my boy talk haha.

Date with my boyfriend was amazing,
starting with the appetizer of the day: HER SKIRT HAHAHAHAHA.
here's a sneak peek yo:

yes it's probably the first time i've seen her wear anything else besides shorts tee or school uni.
Fantabulous right!
okay fine even though i kinda forced her to wear that haha.
Her skirt was bright turquoise striped, real sweet.(:
I seriously, cant stop staring at her.
Oh, and before her head gets any bigger,
it's not because of her,but rather, her skirt heee.
So dont think too much yeah, honey?
HAHAHAHA.
Had KFC for dinner,
choked everything down in 10minutes before dashing off for the cinema.
Gossiped our way in and out of the cinema hahaha,
as what we always did(:
Hey runway darling, we must go for more of these again yeah?
HAHA.

Oh and btw,
watched Ghosts of Girlfriends' Past with boyfriend sometime back.
After separating for a few seconds at CityHall MRT,
i saw her again.
What an unsightly moment, haha.
I think this was at the KFC during a temporary comm meeting sometime back.

okay thank god i'm done already.
(:happy 15th boyfriend, stay flat and bimb yeah?
HAHA loveya.

/

2009-08-07T21:21:00.002+08:00

Sometimes,
just pouring out all that poo inside you into someone you know you can rely on can be a great feeling.
Yes unbelievably so.

National Day celebrations were kinda alright,
especially when boyfriend came on stage HAHA okay sorry i'm kidding serious.
As usual,
her vocals came into action and brought the house down(:
I think i need to bring a little colour to this dull-looking place.
Here goes:
Clara is the prettiest thing on Earth unlike Vicky just like Joey exactly like Chew.
(:
(i have reasons for saying the last two names. Too much at stake, i'd say.)

/

2009-08-06T22:20:00.004+08:00

Yes i finally decided to do something about this place starting with the skin.

Cooked curry cheekan for Bro today(:
Eh it tasted decent okay!
and Mom didnt help me at all yay.
I'm like, super proud of my culinary skills can hahaha.

Headed for the community club for a round of badminton with Bro and company.
Real fun, no kidding.
And embarassing too,with them giving in to me all the time with my sucky skills.
Oh well,
at least i had my share of fun(:
great way to take away the furball of emotions
from a think-too-much brain like mine haaha.

I'm feeling jubilant cos my grades have been on the rise,
check out the EMath Physics AMath test results.
From Fs to As.
Yes, imma proud girl and wishes to remind so,
therefore i will continue to put in the best of my efforts
and keep my grades at where they are right now.
As they say,
'Keep it up.'

Speaking of which ,
i'm dying to watch the movie Up,
with flying houses and colorful balloons yeah man woohoo.

/

2009-07-22T19:37:00.004+08:00

Yes we're mocking at the birds.

These few days have been...................beyond my means of language to describe,
i suppose.
tests exams homework presentations are coming in non-stop,
and i'm doing my utmost to clear the pile that never stops piling.
No easy feat,
but as i said, I'm doing my utmost.

The library is well becoming my place of solace recently,
though my legs often beg to differ.
Still, making an effort can make lots of difference too.
To my sanity, that is.

Elections are on friday,
and POP's on saturday.
And thinking back about the POP previously...
oh man here comes the tissue box.
LYNETTE SAYS IF SHE CRY WE'RE ALL GETTING TREATED TO LUNCH.
oh yeah man,
i can just imagine the bill HAHAHA.

/

2009-07-21T21:58:00.002+08:00

I'm angry because of this.
I'm upset because of that.
I'm tired no thanks to them.
I'm frustrated no thanks to you.
I need to rant.
desperately.
I wanna get out of wherever i am.
I wanna get away from wherever this is.
If only,
things were easier done than said.

Everything is getting to me recently.
And i hate being sandwiched in the middle,
with nowhere to reach out for,
to rely on for directions.
I've lost my sense of decisiveness,
and cant seem to get back on track.
I refuse to go on like this.
Gotta get a hold on myself before things get out of control.

Get used to it,
Clara, get used to it already.

-Javier,we share the same sentiments.
how comforting to know that there's someone out there like yours truly.

2009-07-11T23:47:00.002+08:00

Yes yes i'm gulity for not posting for eons ages whatever.
Finally got the green light from Bro to use my darling laptop which have been begging me to touch it since god-knows-when.
HE IS BACK.(:
yeah man after 97104958486570680918509274906 years.
but only for two pathetic months:/
School have been hell.
Tests homework O's oral piano exam arghhhhh i'm going nuts okay fine heck.
Its just......overwhelming.
Chinese Chem on the upcoming Monday, Piano on Thurs.

Hoping to catch some movie soon.
like, real soon.

Too many things going on in my mind now.
Indescribable.
Oh heck that.

/

2009-06-04T15:06:00.006+08:00

Okay i'm back from a short hiatus but am going on a long one again till perhaps after the holidays.
Obvious reasons,
so grow a brain and go figure.

THE PRESENT.
1.I'm still figuring how to tell momma about tomorrow's performance and the coming ones too.
2.My holidays are basically, no life.
3.I dont think i'll be able to even go out at all.
4.Extension week is great cos i get to get away from home.
5.It sucks cos it's raining every morning to date and rainy mornings are for SLEEPING.

And,
to sum up the past few fantastic weeks.

THE PAST.
1.I feel bad cos Mr Wong caught me outside after skipping band practice, but i told MsLow already anyway.
2.I thought Mr Soon's nice, but he just aggravated my situation by describing like a bottomless pit.
3.I'm grounded, and happy to be so.
4.I'm heavily in debt, thus being grounded just helps not having to spend useless money, ESPECIALLY, on food.
5.I am gonna go on a diet.serious.
6.Going out with Blossom was a real joke with furry french lingere and 10bucks worth of sweets.(:
7.I have proudly charted my holiday schedule for EVERYTHING.
8.I think Royston is as mean as ever.
9.I think Vicky sounds sexy while running and telling me Tuesday's timetable on the phone.
10.Daphne hates AMath.
11.I promise NEVER to NOT BRING MY FILE ever again.
12.60pumpings can be really hilarious.
13.Just look at Meixin's face.(:

Lastly,
for now.

THE FUTURE.
1.I dont know why i'm feeling so....restless.
2.So many things i wanna do,wanna say,but yet i cant.
3.I dont know how to go about with the Mario trio with clarinets and supposedly, drumset, with so many things happening.
4.My mother just jammed my timetable with more tuition.again.
5.My brother is super unreasonable at times.
6.I promise to mug my ass off during June holidays in the hope to be to go band as per normal when school starts.
7.I hope to be able to squeeze in movie time,but not planning on keeping my hopes high:/
8.Especially the Ghosts from the Girlfriends' Past of sth.(:Scrooge-style.
9.I promise to reply tags when i come back from the long/short hiatus.
10.*crosses fingers*

[edits]

JOEY IS THE PRETTIEST THING.
EVER.
-hellyeah.-

/

2009-05-25T20:34:00.002+08:00

My week have been an entire mess.
Fantastic results, bad flu and what-nots.
Oh and a beautifully infected scar on my palm to add to the joy.
Friday was like hell,
cos i was seeing black spots feeling nauseous and having bad tummyaches.
Headed for the polyclinic with Yuzi before pulling myself together for band.
Felt horrible, but lasted through it.
Wanted to skip Saturday's session with the expensive MC i got from polyclinic,
but unforseen circumstances decided against it.
Left after tutorials anyway,
then headed to Sengkang to get mom's documents from aunt's house.
managed to catch a short nap before heading off to ECP for Chew's birthday.
Will update about it the next time; waiting for photos.

Today's weather was pure hell.
Bottle rocket was quite fun though,
minus the freaking hot climate.
Got the new ezlink cards;
HOMG they didnt put the picture my old one used to have!
instead its the one that was used looooong ago, yuck.
I'm gonna need to find a sticker to cover that up.
Headed for parkway after school w Daphne and Yuzi(:
talked for ages at CoffeeBean hahahahahahaha.
Let's just skip the details i guess(:
I shouldnt have drank that Belgian chocolate latte though.
sinful,
plus i'm feeling nauseous again after all the milk:/
Came home,
and tried to take naps,
but the stupid construction works were killing my ears.
Piano was cancelled anyway.

Despite all that,
i think today's a GREAT day.(:
Go figure.

/

All i needed was a smile to make my day.
And i got my wish.

/

2009-05-16T03:46:00.002+08:00

Who can make a bunch of chains look sassy and sing chords for 4octaves?
Answer:

Like seriously,
this guy is like THE next hottest thing.
check out his VOCALS .
Dont believe me still?
Ask the Man.(:
seriously,who cares if he's gay?
okay i dont really know about the octaves part hell,
JUST listen to him.

I think Kris Allan is pooey.
ACT CUTE LA.
Gokey sings soooo much better and dang he must be out):
prays Lambert'll win and pee over Allan's ears haha.

/

2009-05-15T02:10:00.003+08:00

This post is gonna be long,
so bear with me.
I'd let the pictures do most of the talking first.(:

14/5
great great great movie(:
the thriller,as always.
I love the effects created when the anitimatter and matter clashed,
Even though nothing is supposed to come out from it.
Beautiful.

fooling around in the toilet after the movie(:
HHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
okay that spoke my thoughts out,
nice and sweet.(:
Had a really great day today,
no kidding.
NewYorkNewYork spoilt my mood though,
with my steak w.done instead of m.rare):
and the price tag was not cheap either,
sigh oh well.
Otherwise it was fantastic(:

Headed for TCC in the early afternoon for some caffeine to keep us up for the day,
and caught up on each others' lives.
Man, i really missed her haha.
(:
Afterwhich we headed for Esplanade library,
and i went to copy truckloads of scores(:

/

13/5
Exams are officially over!
But i'm dreading what comes after all this ends):
Nothing bad, i hope.
Had been keeping up with my movie knowledge these days(:

Love this movie,
despite its draggyness.
Sizzled in a few tears too,
when Marley died):

/

15/5

AARON JOHNSON IS HOT.
SEAN BROUKE TOO.
like OMXG how cute can they get?!?!
and serious,
the producers aint got taste.
what type of female main lead did they find?!
someone should just stuff an udder up those dumb people's noses, man.

This show's hilarious.
Vicky told me i wont regret it,
and hell yeah i didnt.(:
I can just imagine Nina and I having that catfight across the aisle HAHAHA okay kidding.
Guys were okay,
but Kate Hudson's brother is another one into the list.
HAHAHA okay yes i think i'm hormonal.
LOL.

I broke records.
Its 3.30am now(:
and i'm playing Restaurant City.
Seriously, dang you Facebook for making me addicted to so much stuff.
okay whatever gotta sleep soon but LYNETTE if you're reading this,
LISTEN UP DARLIN'.

-cheerup okay babe, you're like dead to the world and though i dontknow what's happening to ya cheer up anyway. The sky's always brighter on the other side,so concentrating on walking towards it.Meanwhile, look at Lyselle and continue laughing and ignore your moody parents and their moodswings and think of me and smileee(: or another option,which i advise you against; think of MsRyan. i think his gay *rolleyes spastically cool* expression can definitely keep you giggling for years.
SMILE AND CHEERUP YO.
p.s. If Lyselle ever gets to read this;
'IGNORE WHATEVER BAD YOUR SISTER SAID I SAY ABOUT YOU.SHES ALWAYS LYING COS SHES JEALOUS!'(:

okay i'm gonna hit the sack.
well,soon.
(:

/

2009-05-09T23:45:00.002+08:00

This video is the best i tell you. Henry posted the link to me and i still cant stop laughing.Go Donald!

Happy Birthday Mummy!

celebrated at Coco restaurant just now;
yeah my treat(:
the steamboat is fantastic i tell you.
Their tiger prawns are just..amazing.
Dinner was followed by the surprise cake i bought from Breadtalk.
It tasted..ordinary:/
so much for a 38-buck cake which looked so fabulous tempting sinful whatever.
But i still got that happy satisfied look from momma,
and after doing so much,
i deserve that dont i?(:

I'm desperate to get to Esplanade library to get scores for the ensemble thing,
but i'm so broke,
i cant even get the membership now.
And it might take me weeks to save up something again.
Cross my fingers and pray for Geoffery's salvation,
in the hope that he might be human enough to lend me his hehheh.

Exams are over!
well,almost.
I promise myself to mug over EHistory tomorrow and Tuesday(:
discipline,discipline!
Meanwhile, i've been spending my free time watching all kinds of videos haha.
okay,i'm a straight girl,
so no NC16 materials, cross my heart.
Ms Swan is really sexy,
Mickey is dumb for not getting any sexy bassoons for his band concert,
Show Luo is kuku for trying to make friends with dumbos thru the net,
and Man Utd SCORES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yay Chelsea you suck so hang up your boots and consider selling popcorns at the Champion League's final instead.

okay my eyes are droopy bye.\

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2009-05-02T18:10:00.002+08:00

It's always nice to know that you have someone there for you when all else fails.
But it seriously can hurt to know the reality.
I hate all this political backstabbing rubbish,
but sometimes you just have to accept the fact that it exists.
And speaking of which,
i might as well get immune to that.
The sooner, the better.

Mugging sessions @HansTrinity have been somewhat fruitful,
minus the crapping sessions.
I'd prefer the NationalLibrary mugouts though(:
Still,
any place is better than home,
with the noisy construction booming all day long.):

I'm really worried about AMath,
but there's no point in the unecessary worry anyway.
I'm gonna be a good girl and finish on my revision papers by tomorrow.
Chinese tuition tomorrow even though its over):
and i havent gone swimming in ages,
Coach Sally's gonna skin me!
0.0

random;
i really think 五木has a super sexy beginning.
that trumpet solo *whistles*
(:

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2009-04-26T22:21:00.006+08:00

I'd never do that ever again.
Never.
Never.
Never again.
Never felt so freaked out,
Never felt so alone.
I'd never do that again,ever.

What a day.
Woke up in the morning late and knocked my head against the wall next to my bed.
Went to the bathroom and dk why found a big dugly bruise on my shoulder.
Went to tuition at Parkway and my milo cup's contents onto the table.
Went to board a bus to Bugis for tuition and realised my ezcard was empty.
Had tuition and a big huge cramp on my toes thanks to the friggin cold library.
Got cheated of my time, scared out of my shit.
Never wanna have any day like today ever again.
I dont like you, Mr Sunday.
Go away.

/

2009-04-24T20:08:00.003+08:00

I will NOT be affected by dumbasses who spoil my day chanting nonsensical crowpoo.
I will not.
I will not.
I will not.

School have been trashy this week,
with crazy extra lessons and long days.
So long, i hit the sack every time i reach home and start on work late and end late and wake up late.
What a life cycle.
Speaking of which,
There's SS and Chemistry extra lesson tmr at school):
Then tuition after that.
then bla bla bla bla bla.
I think EMath is starting to become enjoyable after sometime,
minus Matrices):
I think Coordinate Geometry is really cool,
and Linear Graphs is super easy yo.

I'm trying to love math now,
chanting it like a mantra.
And it's beginning to work!
i wonder if its applicable for diets hmm.
oh well.
Dont want Zaid to call my momma and have a repeat of the fiasco last term):
Esp over MATH.

I like using colors to express my expressions:D
Okay breaktime's over back to the books bye.
(ooh, alliteration.)
I rock as usual.
*shrugs*
(:

/

2009-04-16T18:24:00.002+08:00

Had detention yesterday for those darn slippers.
Had i known, i wouldn't even have bothered to come for the consultation.
And now adding to that annoying two hours,
i have to copy Chemistry notes plus write 500lines of...
you wont wanna know.

Tests are like tornados in America,
coming in one after another.
I'm getting horrible moodswings from these poo thoughts too.
I'm still having slight problems catching up on what I've missed,
and am awaiting in anticipation of the weekend's arrival.
Piano lessons have been crazy too,
with my exams drawing near and the contrary motions sounding like a complete mess.
And MYEs are like a week away):
So much to do, so little time.
What am i doing here?!?!?!

Get out, Clara.
NOW.

/

2009-04-12T00:46:00.003+08:00

Taken at SCH, dated 8April'09.
credits to WaiTeng sexy(:
HAHAHAHA talk about sexies LOL.

MYEs are super near,
i can count the weeks with my fingers already):
BUCK UP CLARATFL SCORE ACES LIKE POO AND SHUT MOMMA UP FER GOOD YEAH MAN.

10Random Facts.
1. I wanna go shopping with 200bucks at hand and the Topshop signboard staring down at me.
2.I'm doing Emath online quizzes now with one hand, believe it or not.
3.I'm smsing Tjia with another HAHA.
4.I wanna read a good book.desperately.
5.I need to memorise the valency table by tonight.
6.My ears are still heavily blocked after today's swimming.
7.I left my mucus floating all around the pool.
8.My shoulders hurt crazy after banging into a sprinting swimmer head-on while doing backstroke.
9.The Ferrero Rochers are tempting me.again.
10.I'm gonna mug tomorrow.Even though i dont need to.i have to.

If only you know.
if only.

/

2009-04-09T21:18:00.004+08:00

Disappointed):
The results did not speak of our efforts.
Or did it?
I wouldn't know.
though it wouldnt really matter anyway.
We definitely deserved better, but no point groaning over it now.
AT LEAST we did our best:D
Sliver, WITH honours!

Went to eat with Huimin and Jingting at Swensens after syf,
then headed home and conked out till 6am today.

Had chemistry consultation for an hour in the morning before heading home
and conk out again.
Decided not to go for sports meet with those rashes burning me up.
had tuition then piano.
Speaking of which,
i got my SECOND detention slip of the millienium.
freak man,
what's the crime with slippers?!
everyone wears them la wlaooo.
and here's the best part;
i get to copy notes for that two hours of detention on wednesday.
jealous right.

i'm feeling feverish.
guess all the sicknesses and what-nots are coming to visit after syf huh.
here's the irony bit;
when i'm in an air-conditioned enviroment my rashes are nice
and good and stay stagnant.
On the other hand my nose starts clogging up all its rubbish and
cowpoo and clam up my entire respiratory system.
YET,
when i'm in a room-temperature place,
my rashes will start up like a bad chemistry experiment gone wrong and
look like there had been an ants' gatherings on my legs and arms.
Meanwhile, my nasal passageway will be so clean,
i can breathe in salt and nothing will happen.
Wtf right.
Mom says i should just sleep on the floor at my door,
with my legs inside the air-conditioned room and my nose outside smelling stars._.

when we reached L,
a wave of nostalgia overcame me.
The thought of the sec4s playing together with us for the last time,
the thought of them leaving for good.
And with that,
i played the rest of the piece like i've never before played.

/

2009-04-04T20:32:00.002+08:00

I love her more than anything else in this world,
so i just had to do this dedication.
(and i aint a lesbo, so dont think too much please.)

Happy Birthday honeypie(:
From complete strangers to greatest friends;
you were more than i could ever ask for.
As many differences as we had,
nothing stopped our friendship from progressing.
In a way,
you're like the sister I never had(:
Thankyou for the marvellous 6years of friendship thus far,
i've enjoyed every moment of it.
Stay happy,keep smiling as always.
LoveyaC:

I'm kinda nervous over SYF, minus the tiredness.
I pray and really do pray hard the results we get is worth our efforts;
those dan AMaths lessons i've missed, those Chemistry notes i've left blank.
Kangrong's words today somehow made sense,
though it obviously left a untreated wound gaping open:/
I'm way too tired both physically and mentally to think about it any longer though.
Leave the mind talks for another day.

Just hope for the best,
and do nothing but the BEST.

Congrats to ahem* for the step in progress, like FINALLY.
hahaha, hope you guys last long.
As always, stay happy.

Will not blog for the coming week;
i need to catch up on my work:/
after missing 3days of lessons.
Make that four with Sports day.

Night.

/

2009-03-30T22:56:00.004+08:00

Birthday was celebrated over the weekend with various people(:

27/3

birthday girls(:we're fifteen!

I brought my really pretty green camera and though its no DSLR,
it still take great photos!(:
I was so madly in love with it that i went round snapping photos whenver possible.
Here's a collection of my madness(:

That's jo's hand;go figure.

She cant get any sexier than this man:D

Celebrated with DRooWL=) in the afternoon together with ShaoZhe's birthday.
Oh man,
i sure hell love this bunch of fun-loving people.
we rock man!(:

DRooWL=)'09.
a full family photo,aww.

The two Jonathans showing the glam and unglam way of eating cake.
Hilarious moments:D
Blackforest cake was fattening but who cares man.
it's my birthday; to hell with that dang gown.XD
(i'll leave the regrets to later in the night.)

Lynette's side view after the cake fight.
We took the leftovers and starting smashing them into Darling's face HAHA.
but Edgar sabotaged me and i got smacked too.
PIMPLES:(

LowerWoodWinds!:D
the oboes were busy doing sectionals with MrWong.__.

Mr Tok willingly posed for this retarded picture,
leaving me in fits with that spastic expression of his.
Band was surprisingly very enjoyable that day.(:

My evening was spent with this incredible bunch of Girlfs,
i dont even know what i'd do without them:/
They waited till 730pm just to treat me to Swensens for dinner.

Ugly!

She's my boyf!(:
So handsome right.
Too bad in front dont even have mounts la;
runways only:(

Sizzling apple crumble pie.(before)
This was super sinful:/ but we ate it anyw.

AfterXD(did i mention how hungry we were at first?)

There you go,
my wonderful bunch of Girlfs.
Thankyou for the dinner treat!(:
Headed over to my house for online karaoke.

you dont wanna know how many windows crashed that night.

28/3
The morning seemed exceptionally fresh;
perhaps 15years of living on PlanetEarth did something to that.
Allamandas by the lake were in full bloom,really pretty(;
Met Vickyass to get Ying's present from her,
fooled around with my sexycamera again(:

This photo is so original,
you cant get it anywhere else!(though not like anyone wants in anyw.)

had tuition till 6pm before heading out to meet Nina at Swissotel(:
The view was amazing.
I could barely leave the balcony with such a view like that.
Caught a movie; The Unborn.
yeah i was scared out of my wits and currently have a mini phobia of mirrors:/
tonned throughout the night,
caught excerpts of Dead Silence before crashing at around 5plus.

Nightviews were taken by Ying,
morning views were taken by yours truly.
Pretty aye(:

6years together(:
what an incredible feat.
We'd last long,wont we?
:)
29/3
Headed out to EastCoast after breakfast and shopping session with Ying.
Met Vicky,Roys Quanli and twin,
though she left early in the end-.-
Rented double bikes HAHA.
cycled all the way to Changi before heading back to the Food Village for linner/dunch.
Tanyi came too(:
Started to rain while eating;
cycled back in the rain to return the bikes on time.
Some people came really late though god-knows-what they were doing hahha.

HAHA omg we looked like we just got resurrected from the drowned.
just look at QuanLi man.
he's wearing my jacket HAHAHA.
FAT guy needs bigger size LOL.
but thanks for loaning yours to me while cycling(:

Thanks for the birthdaywishes/presents/cards/what-nots;
Enjoyed every bit of my 3-day birthday haha.

/

2009-03-24T22:15:00.002+08:00

Charisma lesson was spent by the lake(:
decided to take class photos despite Celine's famous pimple.

I fell and go big zugly scabs no thanks to the monsters of the class.
See the blood in the photo?
okay in case you're wayy too blind,
i circled it.

/

2009-03-21T22:17:00.002+08:00

I CAN FINALLY ZIP MY GOWN ALL THE WAY UP HA.
But i cant breathe in it.__.
Its like i'm bursting any moment.
I guess the liquid-intake only diet did help,
though i'd need faster results:/
and WITHOUT cost.
i'm awfully broke after class outing and band and presents,
plus i owe like 85404938149369 people MONEY.

I'm getting pissed off at the thought of food nowadays and
seeing people like fatVicky's name pop up makes me even hungrier.
I've got half a mind to borrow money and get a new gown instead:(
Dang the thought of french fries that's flying through my head this very moment.

Had band camp the last two days which was pretty alrighty(:
yay DrooWL=) reunion!
but we didnt get to take photos together cos Jixin only walked in by the time i walked out.
Temp.comm took over,
which was kinda shaky,
but we got through it anyway(:
CHEERIO PEOPLE,
WHATS WITH THAT DARK CLOUD ABOVE YOUR HEADS!
(:
i'm proud to say i collected money and did NOT use it at all!
hahaha, what integrity and honesty i have.
Xueying said i was alright yay.
But the math part seriously suck man.
those 3 digits flying in your head,ugh:/

simileyfreakytiredymewhee.

/

2009-03-19T20:00:00.005+08:00

In loving memory;

She was a great woman of theatre:(
starred in The Parent Trap, Maid in Manhattan.
Great pity, shes only 45:/
May she rest in peace.

Yesterday's band practice was quite fruitful(:
though time was wasted a bit here and there.
Temp.comm was announced,
and i'm liable for the capture of the band cockroach.
Proud of it man(:

Had sectionals in the morning.
i was late for t.comm meeting:/
Or rather,
i didnt even go for it LOL.
couldnt wake up at all.
Rushed for sectionals,
both turned up,
though my darling didnt wake up in time and had chinese raymedial:/

:/
MrZaid's calling my momma for god-knows-what-reason-but-i-dont-wanna-know.
I'm praying all's well.
*praypray*

/

2009-03-18T08:24:00.002+08:00

This book is fantastic,no kidding man.
I kept myself up till 3am just to read finish this book.
So disturbing, i dont even know what to make of it.
And yet, each time i try to put the book down,
within the next ten minutes i'd most probably be picking it up and poring through its pages again.
Intriguing, spellbinding,whatever.
worth every word to read.
Thanks Mel(:

Class outing yesterday was great.
Though we didnt had much of an outline on what to do at first,
We still managed to have some fun haha.
Lunch was at Breeks,
followed by bowling at Superbowl,
then headed down to Millenia Walk for coffee at TCC.
yeah, try inferencing and you'd realize i'm awfully broke.
Level5/ 5 marks if you can figure out from my tone that i was broke way before the class trip.
I'd rather let the pictures do the talking
(credits to Rachel's really amazing camera wow.)

KYRA!oh man we looked really retard wearing camp tee):
No wait,YOU look really retard wearing camp tee.
I look good wearing anything(:

This car is damn sexy man!
i totally felt like carrying it home that moment can.
Saw another ferrari after this,
but it looked old):
Unlike this salsa hot orange Lamborgini.
Damn, i sure hell am gonna marry a blue-eye man with Money as his middle name man.

Great guys,fantastic girls(:

okay the last two are seriously funny.

i wasnt kidding when i said our class had a bunch of incredibly sexy people man.
and i sure hell love every single one of them(:
Great talk at tcc, now we know who's the jackass.

I owe these people money;
-Javier(can you believe it?!mrzaid actually thought we were frickin'together ewwwww.)
-Royston(for my Rose Juliet whatever.but it tasted really nice man.)
-Nicholas(up and coming.)

oh baby,
i'm sooo dead.
Lets pray that those two drinks i drank only yersterday helped.
i didnt eat anything for dinner HAHA.
great control right(:

/

2009-03-14T18:46:00.002+08:00

Band today was pretty alright.
but i wasn't playing at my best:(
my sound was ultimate crap when it first came out,
thank god ryan helped me tune.
Had some sort of weirdy interview after band.
translated,
bombardment of questions:/
apparently sec3s were in charge of the camp on Friday:X
Mich&Hongkai game ICs,
i'm a minute! together with Ziqin haha.

Empty head, empty heart.
I'm so tired; i dont even know what to say anymore.
Pray hard that my holidays will be at least lift my all-time low spirits once.

i wanna go Swissotel NOW:(

i dont know why it had to end up that way.
i dont know what is happening.
i really dont know.

/

2009-03-12T18:02:00.004+08:00

This week had been a whirlwind of events.
and none of them have been happy ones.

Had been having a cold war for the past few days, settled it with one breakdown yesterday.
dont know what i mean?try having two people yelling at you on each side, cramming your ears until you go crankycrazymadwackyburstingnuts.oh and, study physics and do amath e-learning at the same time too.

i am so tired; i dont know what to make of this anymore. I had not expected to encounter any hell like this when i first chose this path. Hell no, giving up was never an option. But when you look you realised. 27days. we got frickin' TwentySeven days to clear up everything. And we're still stuck. The thought about having only this one chance to participate and yet have it ruined completely; it's rubbish. To add on to the mountain of worries, the desire for improvement have been restricted due to limits. but i'm going to overcome that part,some way or another.

Pieces have been familiarised with in one way or another, all that's left is perfection of all else. Having problems still with the parts we play with the horns, but its a matter of time before i get it(:

I'm sick tired lethargic exhausted burned-out drained ragged whatever. But then again, who's not?Tests are mostly over for the term, but what have been done dont look too optimistic. but then again, maybe you're right. no one should have set any hopes for me anyway. i aint worth the time. know what? i've given up trying to please people's asses. i'd rather stick to keeping my spirits up high and happy in this damned gloomy place i live in.

i needed somewhere to rant off this incredible force pinning me to the ground, sucking my life away. Bless whoever i offended, if any.

hush hush.

/

2009-03-08T21:33:00.010+08:00

Went to celebrate Quanli's birthday in town today.
Cabbed there with Cel twin; she paid:)

Met VickyFaith and company at PlazaSing then headed for Fish&Co near ParkMall.

Birthday boy:)

whats with the dao face man.
GreedyVicky sucking away what's left of our JungleFreeze.

Whats left of 3 seafood platters after clearing stock:D
I'm responsible for 40% of the damage!(and proud of it.)

A fantastic bunch of sexy hot and funny girls.

(minus VickyTjiaXD)

headed for tuition after lunching out with them.

2009-03-06T20:12:00.002+08:00

I AM SAD.

I'm feeling - now cos CelineG twin babe is at ShowL's autograph session seeing him show off his sexy dance moves while i'm slogging my ass out in band.
WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY.
Now i know what Phyllis meant by sacrifices:(
hell,i might as well be a nun and live with my bassoon or sth.

Feeling emo down sad disappointed regrets unhappy upset black green whatever.

Still, thanks twin for going all the way down to Simei and helping me queue the long dragon and get dear ShowL's autograph. here's the best part, its going to be my birthday present!I love her to bits man:)

I'm proudly booked for my birthday man HAHAHA.
friday night out, saturday night out, sunday morning out.

VICKY;

hey babe you alright?
dont brood over mama's words anymore okay
have great sleep and get over those matters
anytime just ring me up i'm just a phone call away you know the number
just remember i'm always here for ya k.
i wanna see thay bright sunny gay smile plastered on your ass face
and pray for everyone else's salvation upon seeing your face:D
takecares:)

/

takecares:/

2009-03-05T21:13:00.002+08:00

I spent the day sleeping till the sun tanned my ass at 1230.
rushed to school to have sectionals with Lynette.
Went BK with Rachel and Darling,
then headed for tuition.

Sore throat is hurting like mad,
and i'm beginning to croak like Vickyass.
My nose is blocked too,
makes it hard for me to play bassoon.__.
Didnt join Kyandco for the trip today to SupremeCourt and eat-out,
my apologies:/

I'm horrible at keeping promises;
i went to BK TODAY.
oh howtheworldamisupposedfitinthegown?!?!?!?!?!?!
feeling utterly distraught with myself now,
dont wanna talk anymore.

2009-03-04T21:59:00.002+08:00

Man i sure hell love this bunch of really sexy lame funny crap people.
Pathetic right,
we took our first class photo only three months after knowing one another haha.
credits to Cel twin and her pretty mom:D

Went to URA and the Supreme Court for our heritage trip.
Really cool man,
high class computers and comfy chairs even for the accused.
Javier says that they might as well change them into OSIM massage chairs hahah.
But we got honked at by the police for taking pictures OF THE VIEW):
just when me and Vicky were having fun spamming Yuzi's phone:/
oh well,
besides that it was still very fun haha.

Sexuality talk today was spent sleeping off my wednesday blues.
think i managed to lighten the shade of my eyebags:D
Had Chemistry test,
then had Physics remedial.
Ate with Sirong Yanlun Chester Jordan at Eatz again,
then headed for home.

Doing my E-Learning now,
so that i can go for sectionals tmw and clean up all my dirt.
I LOVE CHEMISTRY MAN HAHA!XD

/

2009-03-03T18:57:00.006+08:00

I HATE ASSEMBLYS.

That $#^Q%#^&@&$@ guy was yakking nonstop getting on my nerves every single hell minute.

Freak man,

i reached home at 6 thanks to him.

someone should have told MrYazeed to make away with these crap useless talks which just reminded us how boring our sec2 history was.

I had a nightmare the night before that i couldnt fit into my gown on SYF day

and end up tearing it while trying it on.

So i'm offically going on a diet man!

NO oily fried food;

NO cheese;

NO full set meals;

and absolutely NO chocolates:(

(this sound like a death sentence to me.)

Cos mama says if i cant fit in i gotta alter it with my own pocket money,
which i have none left to speak of in the first place.

Long overdue photos;

spastics bitche man!
Talentime was such a huge success;
we didnt get in!
Obviously MrLoh was deaf for the day man,
he didnt realized how fanatastic we sang hahah.
I learnt my lyrics while walking in after eat-out at POS.
Impromptu rehearsals were really hilarious, but we did great.
As i said,
he most probably pick some poisonous berry made from Vicky's poo and ate it,
thus the temporary deafness.

I'm feeling unhappy because i just realiz that Show's autograph session is this Friday.
and obviously i cant go.
I wanna get my album signed,
i wanna see him sing dance and listen to his ridiculously hilarious jokes.
I want i want i want but i still cant go:(
damn.

Guess what,
i have to go to band on my birthday too.

/

2009-02-25T20:07:00.002+08:00

Lessons today was real slack:)
No math lesson at all, for once.
Went to eat at Pinch of Salt outside school before going back in for Talentime and band.

Talentime was pretty alright.
Considering the fact that i only knew the lyrics to the song
while walking back in and memorise there and then.
Rehearse 5times only before going for the thing itself.
and the amazing thing was,
WE DIDNT SCREW UP HAHAHA.
though there was nothing to show off with that song of ours.
对面的女孩看过来:D
and it sounded like a 'funeral song' according to MrZaid haha.
really hilarious at how impromptu we were,
but we were there for the fun so BIGDEAL if we did not get it.

Headed straight for band practice after that;
MsLow was in the midst of a lecture over god-knows-what.
Played the pieces;
Overture was okay,Alex sounded really funny haha.
MrWong finally went through Overture today:)
but only the front part before A, where the fun begins._.
but it was quite enough to digest:D

P.S.Thanks Rochelle for ferrying me home!(:

/

Lady;
look i dont understand what is wrong with you.
okay admittedly it was my fault that you got punished.
and hell i was FRIGGIN' GULITY.
but was it necessary to go around blaming the world for what you suffered.
you just had to bring the whole issue another step by complaining dont you.
and anyway who are you to judge my feelings huh.
i dont like it when people talk behind my back,
especially when i have done nothing to offend any part of your soul or body.
So stop bitching about people before you get outcasted here too .
No threats or spams, just words of advice.
Take it or leave it, its up to you on how you want to survive anymore.
hardcore fact: no one likes you.
so if you're going to continue being so attitudified,
then its your choice.
Like Eugene said,
its a democratic class.

/

2009-02-23T19:34:00.002+08:00

I FINISH MY FRICKIN' COMMONWEALTH ESSAY AND HISTORY ASSIGNMENT MUAHAHAHAHA.
I'm so proud of myself; you dontknow man.

thankyou Vicky bitch for the fabulous help:D
those rare moments of intelligence from you HAHA.

Commonwealth essay is still somewhat a failure with only 629words to speak of,
and the minimum word limit is1200.
But then again,
its not like i'll even get a commendation or money or what right so who cares.
Thanks Weiyan and Joel for the sports notes you guys gave me.
They helped a lot:D
Heaven's sake, i didnt even know what was a close quarter game till they told me.
LOL.

homework, homework, homework.

/

2009-02-22T20:24:00.002+08:00

I think i have osteoporosis.

Definition of illness;

a disorder in which the bones become increasingly porous, brittle, and subject to fracture, owing to loss of calcium and other mineral components, sometimes resulting in pain, decreased height, and skeletal deformities: common in older persons, primarily postmenopausal women, but also associated with long-term steroid therapy and certain endocrine disorders.
(credits to ask.com)

yesyes, i'm going cranky these days especially with that $#^^@$#%&%$&%*!@ hell of a commonwealth essay which is getting hot on my nerves. I was supposed to email Zaid in the afternoon and its 8pm at night now.

Had band yesterday morning;
YAY I GOT A NEW JUNIOR AGAIN.
and shes really smart.
Ordinary name, ordinary look.
but shes confirm chop smart somewhere beneath that gongdaidai look.
full of questions and kinda forgetful and lack of confidence at times.
but nevermind,
being a sexy bassoonist will take away ALL of that man
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
*praypraypray the curse will go away*
Had sectionals throughout;
Henry and Kangrong came back.
Thanks henry for fixing my microsoft office haha.
Sectionals was alright,
though not fantastic:/
i can do better than that man!
SYF gold babe come near to me please!

Swam for 4hours straight today.
My legs went nuts flying in water man.
now i can barely walk stairs.
And it seems that theres a big possibility that tmw is squats day.
Talk about bouts of bad luck.

Yes,
i'm joining Talentime for god-knows-what reasons,
with Cel twin,Vicky ass,Rach nut and who else i dont remember man.
I'll make a wreckage out of the music room together with thsi whacky company,
so watch out for us;
Zaid's Fanclub HAHAHAHAH.

/

2009-02-18T19:15:00.002+08:00

I'm going berserk from the lethargy and all else.
Moodswings can seriously do some amazing stuff to people.

I have not practise piano at all.
I have not completed my Math homework yet.
I have not done the AceLearning quizzes.
I have not done my Literature storymap.
I have not done my tutor's homework.
I have totally no idea on how to make my commonwealth essay look like a rose among the shit.
I have not even thought about the narrative essay at all.

This is pure complete ridiculously created my god-knows-who madness.
Today was a big time sucker with scoldings and strings of bad luck extending from my hair.
English suck cos Zaid didnt let Mel and i change place,
so i'm still stuck with the 'peace and quiet'.
PE suck cos i suck at that stupid hard volleyball that make my arms scream at my brain for being a retard by playing with that ball and killing my skin cells in the process.
Chemistry suck cos we were late for class and had to stand for half an hour as punishment, which is definitely our fault to speak of.
Chinese suck cos lessons were so dry i had to tear my eyelids apart just to stay awake to listen.

Band suck too cos my instrument's bell is ALWAYS stuck and giving others trouble and we cannot play our pieces yet after so long and SYF is just a few practices away. My only SYF and that is the result i'd most probably get. That feeling seriously suck big time.

Im feeling really cranky and all else;pray i'm not like this tomorrow.

/

2009-02-17T20:34:00.002+08:00

Tag 10 people to do this.
Answer the questions that follow and fill them into the blanks of the template:Dear (the last person who texted you),I don't really know how to tell you this, but (1). I think I realized it (2) (3) and I saw you (4) (5).I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory.You should also know that I (10) (11).(12), Your name.

1. What's the colour of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over.
Red - Our affair is over.
White - I'll join the monastery.
Black - I dislike you.
Brown - The mafia wants you.
Green - Our horoscopes don't match.
Grey - You're a pervert.
Yellow - I'm selling myself.
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting.
No shirt - You're a loser.
Other - I'm in love with your sister.

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the colour of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Barefoot - Sit on
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Other - Drive out

5. What's the colour of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Iraq
Purple - My mustard souffle
Orange - My Kid Rock collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
House - Scarred
Lost - High
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle class

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Sad - How boring you are
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this
Nervous - The middle east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks
None of the above - Ashamed

8. What's the colour of your bedroom walls?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Green - The pictures from LA
Grey - Our matching Snoopy bibs
Purple - You
Pink - The cut toenails
Others - The memories in the military service

9. What is the first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - Results of your blood sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. What is the last letter of your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water - Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation of an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for micer old lottery coupons
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second World War
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you want to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off
France - In pain

Dear Vicky,

I don't really know how to tell you this, but i dislike you. I think I realized it when your dwarf bit me with George Bush and his wife and I saw you hit on my father.I'm sure you're senile enough to understand that Santa doesn exist.I'm returning your love letters to you, but I'll keep oil stocks as a memory.You should also know that I never openly mocked your eggplant fetishism.

Go and drown yourself,
Clara:D

/

2009-02-15T14:10:00.003+08:00

Valentines' Day was spent with band in the morning .
Kangrong came and joined us during sectionals:)
Combined was JBC as usual,
but something was at the very least acheived,
regardless of how tired i was .

Had tuition in the afternoon,
following by a wedding dinner right after that.
Felt really tired,
but managed to keep awake until 1plus.

MY PHONE IS SPOLIT.
just when i fixed that slider just a few months ago.
It just blank out before i knew it.

/

i'm just too tired to say anything else.
you dont make sense at all .
but then again,
you never did.

/

2009-02-12T22:39:00.002+08:00

Valentines' Day is coming.
Big deal.__.
i cant even go out,
and nopee,band doesnt count.
Just the thought of Vicky Tjia having fun without me makes me wanna stuff the mouse down her throat.
Okay, no violence:D

Headed out with great company, laughed my ass off all the way.
I went scouting to buy presents owed since January and dating all the way to March:D
and created a mighty holy hole in my pocket on the way.
and guess what,
I'm not done yet.
Trust me,
Feburary have too many babies to count.
Tests are ending tomorrow,
pray nothing else will come next week.
Just for next week,
gimme a break please .

/

2009-02-11T20:13:00.003+08:00

This entire week have been really bad.

-My chinese test's marks suck bigtime; a miracle i didnt fail.

-I cant go out on Valentine's with Vicky Weining QuanLi and Co,
cos i got band and tuition till 6plus.__.

-My Physics test was a total screw-up, and i dread getting the paper back.

-I wanna change place, but i still cant.

-I got three essays to contemplate about, one due tonight, another two due next week.

-My friggin' Microsoft Word just failed me like 5seconds ago.

Like what the heck. Why must those freaking tests coming flying all in one go huh.
i wanna catch a movie. i wanna have a good sleep. i wanna take a break from all the crap pressure and go wild gay happy with Kyra.

But i cant.

Had Chinese lecture today, kind of boring .
Scandals, scandals.
Ooh i love them,
provided it doesnt involve me.
Headed for band after that, had sectionals .
i'm halfway through solving my problems here and there,
though i still hope to find a two hour individual practice to resolve them once and for all.
but i'm kinda tired too.

Tanyi just enlightened me with some really cheeeem advice.
Wow.
i feel like i have some big golden helo above me now.

/

2009-02-09T18:47:00.004+08:00

Ate breakfast with QL,Vicky,Royston and Huimin.
revised Chinese with them:D
it worked!
i learnt a word that came out hahahah.
Took a big breakfast each with QuanLi and shared a hotcake meal too hahah.
i've committed the sin of Gluttony tsk.

Today's basically a real crap day.
No kidding; assembly was a waste of time.
Had i known today's topic was going to be THAT boring,
might not have even wanna come to school sigh to listen to that.

Vicky and me tried to be good girls and queue up for PSG,
and what we get in return for being civilized is a packet of otah left.__.
#%$@^$@Q%$#%$#%!#$$%!%
had i known,
i would have just cut there and then grr.
went back to class and gay around with that fat ass,
making a total fool of ourselves.

Lessons were okay,
but MrsTan seem pretty pissed with the class conduct during Chemistry.
No surprise there,
when the amount of noise we generate can turn turbines and produce electricity.

I wanna change place><
not that Melody suck or what(she's such an angel man,)
just that i cant concentrate much with the noise around me.__.
Sitting around people like Vicky(minus the crap between us.)
will most probably allow to me grow some cells inside my head instead of killing them.

Vicky and me are officially KYRA.
vicKY plus claRA.
COOL NAME RIGHT.
i thought of it,duhh.

p.s.Vicky posted the picture of herself under my Beloveds link.
i repeat.VICKY posted,not me.

/

2009-02-08T15:31:00.003+08:00

Just had swimming lessons:D

i'm feeling great after a wonderful sleep and a good swim.

3hours in the pool without sunblock made me look chaota ahahah.

I cant resist comparing eyes with that fella down there.

2009-02-07T20:41:00.004+08:00

I'm feeling very lethargic.
Never had i ever done the hell of this before .
And never do i wish to do it ever again .
What i need now is a really good sleep.
i'll never sleep an hour before morning call ever again,
i swear.

Tag replies;

Vicky`i'm way too tired to figure out that 25things quiz for now hon.__.another time perhaps? and YOU KUKU.scroll DOWN before you tag kuku tags.btw,Ponyo was sooo long ago man,
i wonder if its still showing?LOL. hey the show's nice okay!Even QuanLi wants to watch it haha.you NO TASTE LA.ahahah,okay add me in that Boob group, just dont get me a phewy name to go along with it kay.You're famous for it.

Celine`hahah yesyes twin thanks for that day anyway.We're born on the same day sugar,how can i not love you?just promise to share darling Sammy with me and imma happy girl:D
And remember this,how short i am,cannot be compared to how pig you are.HAHA.

Ling`NOT IN ORDER LA, tsktsk.you should know my love for you cannot be counted purely with numbers okay!

Weining`got the pictures already;thankyou!yesyes you're very very nice too hahah BHB. but seriously if not for you i gg luh;S

Lynny`hahah ay,promise to fix it by next weekend okay?:D

Fiona` haha thanks man:)haha my skin pro whaaaat,can hypnotize you:D

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2009-02-07T00:07:00.002+08:00

Today was pure hell.
from the first period to the last.
No comments except these;

♥KX ♥V ♥WN QL YL MZ R ♥Cel ♥Ling ♥Mel .
i dontknow what i'll do without any of you.
Your words and help were enough to make my day, anytime.
thankyou:D

/

2009-02-05T19:59:00.004+08:00

I wanna watch this movie;

i'm dying to watch it,
KuoXian too haha.
and the effects are really great yay.
Well, that what NewPaper says LOL .
I DONT WANNA DO THAT COMMONWEALTH ESSAY.
but obviously MrZaid wont care about our strike, duh._.

Headed out to Kallang KFC for lunch with Vicky,Weining,QuanLi,JianMing and Royston.
A totally hilarous lunch,
with us girls gaying around with food and cameras.
Even took a really spastic picture with the guys haha .
LOL .

/

[edit]
For more pictures;go Weining or Vickys' blogs.

I love this spastic picture the most haha.
WE ALL LOOK SO RETARD HAHAHA.

There you go;
the prettygirls,minus Vicky.
*prays she dont see this at all*

The guys looking gay:D

2009-02-04T20:04:00.002+08:00

Got back my essay today, finally.
I GOT 24 YAY.
when i got 21 was still kinda disappointed lolz.
Until Zaid gave the bonus 3marks wheee.
so now, he's a nice guy again hahaha.
but i daresay he sitll suspicious of me lolz.
Not that i really bother anyway haha.
But now i have to write commonwealth essay too><.
I avoided that crap last year,
but now i have to do it again.___.

Skipped the movie screening today for band practice:(
the movie was a nice one!
But MsLow didnt allow,
so we ended up stuck at band practice instead.
Tsk Zehao was still trying to find a way to wringle out of band practice LOL.
But today was quite alright,
though Joey seems to be on the verge of quitting.__.for god-knows-what reasons.
OUR SECTION IS CURSED.

Today's lessons was quite fun too, surprisingly.
Tanyi and QuanLi got really gay and start doing that 10poses thing omg.
and that bimbo dance HAHA.
but they refused to be taken videos of,
citing privacy and copyright reasons LOL.
Half the class was left after recess,
with so many absentees(Kelly,Ling) and those activites(Guzheng,Vball.)
Class was unusually quiet,
besides Bernadette's high shrill voice chatting away HAHA.
*prays she dont see this.*
I'm beginning to understand the Sciences,
but Math is still leaving a big question mark on me,
especially EMath ugh.
can they please try and make lessons more interesting?!
sigh .

/

2009-02-03T22:13:00.002+08:00

I am not going to disappoint myself anymore.
WORK HARD CLARA:D
Okay,making motivation for myself seems like a nice opening statement for the day.
maybe i should try that every morning.
especially tomorrow's first lesson;EMath .

I'm hoping essay-writing would not be tomorrow,
cos i seriously dont know how to go about writing that darn descriptive essay when i barely done such topics since sec1.
Research doesnt help,
especially not when i dont even understand what its all about.
And i lost my whole set of descriptive notes retained from P6.
Plus, Zaid is most probably gonna start picking on me somehow again .
"you dye your hair right?""this essay isnt yours la."
WHATEVER. gave up explaining looong ago.

Movie-screening's tomorrow.
And i've watched it already:)
The book's much nicer though, with the family elements inside.

MY BROTHER'S COMING BACK IN JUNE YAY.
oh man,
i feel like blowing up balloons and floating all the way there to see him.
3years have been a long time.

/

i miss you already .

/

2009-02-01T15:39:00.002+08:00

I'm trying to look interestingly at the Math homework,
to no avail .
I'm trying to read Midsummer's Night with enthusiasm,
to no avail .
I'm trying to figure a way to at least pass my descriptive essay somehow,
to no avail.
I'm trying to find a way to overcome those high notes semiquaver triplets,
to no avail.

Magic powers, anyone?
Please bless me for what's to come in the following week.

/

Not that i really am bothered anyway.

/

2009-01-28T21:46:00.002+08:00

We had half day today,
ended at 11 .
freak,
to think i actually thought MrZ was a nice guy,
until he starting accusing that my essay is not mine .
i HATE being misunderstood,
Everyone knows that .
Hell,i'm even on the brink of cutting off ties because of this kind of issues.
I wrote that friggin' essay,
and i'm NOT afraid to prove it.
I toiled like shit for that freaking piece of essay,
just make sure there was no more repetition of last year' failure.
i might have gotten an A last year,
if not for that first time i ever ever failed my essay.
I suck at descriptive essays big time,
so if i dont get an A1 for this essay,
i'm gonna fight for it like hell.

/

tell me all about it .

/

2009-01-26T22:55:00.002+08:00

Today have been quite fruitful,
with 10red packets and counting:D
I'm contemplating whether or not to do Amath today despite the NewYear,
especially when i'm in such a rare festive mood:D

Finally managed to send photos to Bro through that chim sharing folder crap.
And thats after figuring how that dang thing works after half an hour.
Iwasnt sure if CNY requires resolutions,but since i didnt do any for NewYear, might as well do some for CNY haha.

CNewYearResolutions;

-minimise vulgarites to all but one;HOLY SHIT.
oops.

-watch at least 3horrormovies this year.
Alone.HA.HA.HA.

-not sleep in class,ESPECIALLY math lessons.(howhowhowhowhow?!)

/

2009-01-25T20:56:00.002+08:00

these few days really suck .
Math is an evil subject,
both A&E .
i'm still trying to absorb those formulae though.
School have been pretty boring,
but with Faith's KFC treat and class steamboat coming,
things are brightening up:D
Just pray MrZaid dont come and spoil our day with quality squats,yikes .
did my first component in class .
I praying i dont have a repetition of what happen last second half of the year.
That fail cost me my one and only chance of getting an A.
at least get me a nice 20 to celebrate the start of the year right,
considering how long i took to memorise that darn paper._.

its over.
aint i thankful i dont ever have to face you everyday everymore .

/

2009-01-18T15:10:00.001+08:00

I don't feel like posting anymore;
going on hiatus until i feel like coming back .
bye.

2009-01-10T18:08:00.002+08:00

yay class blog's up:D
thanks to Vicky and Sirong.
my internet connection is just being its usual irritating self,
thus the reason for the long absence.
Teachers have been really great so far,
all so lovable and all haha.
Its a tough start with math,
but i'm coping.
i admit i do have occasional moments of falling asleep,
especially when lessons get really way too dry.
but that will cease to happen, mark my words.
BUCK UP CLARA,YOU'RE GONNA ACE THIS ONE.
HA:D

Times with 3BN have been really hilarious thus far.
I'd never thought we can have such great entertainment,haha.
Thanks to MZaid,
i was separated from dear gorrible Javier:D
and got a really nice runner friend in Melody:)
my new-found buddy,yay .
Always nice to have my Ling around too,hehs.

Band practice have been nuts too.
We just got the JBC book two practices back,
and we're supposed to be able to master as much as possible for SYF.
Crash course alright,
i'll most probably burn holes through walls.
Yesterday's practice started off on the wrong foot,
and ended with the same foot it started with.
This morning wasn't any much better,
with evil Jonathan yelling those 'checks' non-stop,grr.
Fall-in at 7.15,
with CJ teaching us some DM stuff.
Lynette's down with gastric flu :(
but MrTay finally came though.
goodness,
I barely saw his shadow for 4 whole months.
and KangRong came back too:D
and they spoke alien language about some reality world out there,
which i obviously just sat there and listen blankly and the Spanish they were talking.
Adjusted my fingering for the middle range notes in the two hours worth of tutorials:
i got bad habits:(
according to MrTay,
and there he starts his analogy with my math,
oh wells.
but it does make some sense though.
If i change those filthy bad habits of carelessness,
things might go well after all:D
moral of the story;BUCKUP.
combined was terrible though,
i'm awfully out of tune today,grr.
>< even Ryan can hear it,
that bad!

/

2009-01-04T17:46:00.004+08:00

okay,i'm reviving my blog.
Temporary.
I obviously destined to have computer problems for the rest of my life,
judging from current circumstances.

3BN'09 have been an amazingly good start with great teachers:D
Mr Lam's taking us for Chemistry again,yay!
Mr Zaid also seem quite nice to begin with:D
let's pray he does turn out to be as nice as he said he was .
My new desk partner,surprisingly, turn out to be quite a nice person,haha.
and my dearest Ling with her darling is sitting right in front of me.
Aww, what a comforting life:D
i found a new Show fan too haha.
Finally,actually.
But Huiyun seems to be on the brink of taking my darling away,grr.
its the battle of the fairer sex,hehs:D

I missed the recruitment day,
no thanks to that friggin' allergy i never knew i had.
and Ling just had to rub it in by tellnig me how fun it was,
sigh.
Sorry Lynny,
for missing the duet with ya._.

Long pants can do wonders to heights i tell you.
freak,
now the guys look like giants with those pants of theirs.
they just had to rub it in for people like us huh.
i wonder why they didn't let girls wear pants too.
save us that Marilyn-Monroe agony .

I pray for the good grades to start coming to me this year,
for that pretty A will save me from the horrendous terrors of tuition .

/

2008-11-25T19:47:00.002+08:00

Hello.
sorry for the long absence .
only be back on 1/12,
so continue missing me ya?

HappyBirthday JoeyLimShiLei;
i owe you this,
the very least .
dated 17/11 .

got into 3BN'09.
not a fantastic combination,
but still,
one i can live with .
EL,HCL(thank god),A/E Math,Elit,SS/Ehist,PhyChem.
as usual,
no fantastic guys,as usual,
but good-enough girls.
i can live w that:D
ive got loads of band buddies too:)
and many people i know already,
so heck those awkwardness,
muahahahaha.
Joycelyn,Yuhui,Faith,Vanessa(i still owe her $),YuZi,HuiMin,Linxi,blaaa.
Band's still dead too;
will only be revived around 17 i think.

/

2008-10-18T15:14:00.004+08:00

My computer broke down,AGAIN.That also means i'm once again,stuck at an internet cafe,rotting my fingers out .Dang ,i guess it's really having a big grudge against me .

Band practices these few days have been really grueling. No thanks to O's,we moved temporarily from the dear bandroom to that stinky Lecture Theater,yuck. Our holding area is that darn Seminar room thousand of miles from LT too.sigh,i miss bandroom:( MrWong have been going through all those killer long notes and metronome-y parts._.and i very obviously,barely survived. Tico-Tico,which was my favorite song initially(take note the 'initially'), became the one song i got so droogy over due the continuous repetitions with different speeds. I even fell half-asleep yesterday while playing those 30seconds-long notes. Literally,i was just blowing out air and closing my eyes,reaching out for Dreamland. Hell,this sure is a tough test for my independence skills><,with Lynette conducting. And theres the darn theory to worry about too,not to mention the much dreaded OpenHouse performance. I pray pray pray nothing happens to Ryan so that at least i have a senior to rely on,even if its just a little tiny weeny bit,due to the distance between us. Well, its better than nothing at all,right?*consoling self*

Ate lunch w Huimin(band),thanks for the sponsorship:)and i still owe big bucks to some band people,much to my horror.I HAVE TO STOP INGESTING PARTICLES. Okay,i sound like a phagocyte,LOL.

Results suck . I didnt get a single A, as usual, so i can forget about 8PCB already i guess. I decided to enjoy my weekend to the fullest and release the horrors to my mom next week instead,to prevent heart attacks and high blood pressures.Sorrys Lynny, for not fulfilling our section's tradition><.Sometimes i really wish i can go back to primary school,when scoring a Band1 or an A is challenging enough but somehow still within my means to get it. And the feeling of achieving it can be so rewarding at times. I haven't gotten a single A in the past two years, lest to say an A1, and the feeling kinda fades away already. Everytime the little red book comes back,its another disappointment; another,yet another. Now it seem like faraway legend. i'm really determined to make it a myth no longer,should i get into my desired stream, and even if i dont, i'll try and make the best out of it . And i'm not gonna put myself down again,not ever. This time, its a promise.

{edit}I ATE BREAKFAST WITH JOYCELYN TEO:D She woke me up,early in the morning,while i put my stoopid handphone alarm on a snooze button. Sigh, guess Fate didnt wanna let me enjoy the luxury of comfy warm beds any longer than necessary.
/