Thursday, March 12
posted at 6:02 PM
This week had been a whirlwind of events.
and none of them have been happy ones.
Had been having a cold war for the past few days, settled it with one breakdown yesterday.
dont know what i mean?try having two people yelling at you on each side, cramming your ears until you go crankycrazymadwackyburstingnuts.oh and, study physics and do amath e-learning at the same time too.
i am so tired; i dont know what to make of this anymore. I had not expected to encounter any hell like this when i first chose this path. Hell no, giving up was never an option. But when you look you realised. 27days. we got frickin' TwentySeven days to clear up everything. And we're still stuck. The thought about having only this one chance to participate and yet have it ruined completely; it's rubbish. To add on to the mountain of worries, the desire for improvement have been restricted due to limits. but i'm going to overcome that part,some way or another.
Pieces have been familiarised with in one way or another, all that's left is perfection of all else. Having problems still with the parts we play with the horns, but its a matter of time before i get it(:
I'm sick tired lethargic exhausted burned-out drained ragged whatever. But then again, who's not?Tests are mostly over for the term, but what have been done dont look too optimistic. but then again, maybe you're right. no one should have set any hopes for me anyway. i aint worth the time. know what? i've given up trying to please people's asses. i'd rather stick to keeping my spirits up high and happy in this damned gloomy place i live in.
i needed somewhere to rant off this incredible force pinning me to the ground, sucking my life away. Bless whoever i offended, if any.
hush hush./